i'm so sick of my school... seriously overwhelmingly sick of it.... how much more passion do you want me to build?!?!? it's the constant rejection of not allowing me to go for what i wanna do that's killing my passion... YOU are killing my passion... ARGH!!!! what the hell... SMU accept me into Social Science please... or any where... just accept me into social science... i can't take this any longer... i'm going crazy.... everytime i think i'm doing okay... they just have to do this kinda stunt to me... -.- don't wanna let me go and just say so... don't like me then say so... don't give me crap about me not having enough passion for this job.... if i didn't have any interest in it then i wouldn't have gone into this would i? ARGH!!!! bunch of arse... big fat arse... go yaya somewhere else... and hello... i did hand in my reflections... just that she doesn't get them... and because she's slow... i can't put in new reflections... so i always put and wait... realized after a week she didn't take it... i have to go and take it out again to put a new one... and then she complains that i don't do reflection... eat shit you yaya woman... seriously go eat shit... and in what way am i wearing less? and not modest enough? do you want me to wrap myself in a piece of cloth then you'll be satisfied? i don't see your comments... or feedback... it's not making sense... build passion.... i happened to be a non-expressive person... so because of that i'm penalized and kept back? is that how? and be passionate doesn't mean eat sleep dream and bathe about the students... get a life... i show my passion in my own way.... i don't have to be so expressive... am i in acting school or what?!?! screw you screw school screw all of you.... it's really ridiculous...

ARGH!!!! i'm so pissed off... even till today.... seriously... i pray that SMU wants me... 1 more day before application is opened... pleeeeease let me in.... pleeeeeeeease.... i don't wanna be stuck here anymore... every moment they keep me back... that desire to teach and enjoy just dies... the fire is losing it's oxygen... they are taking that oxygen away from me... they don't see that...
=( i'm bloody upset now... i need to go for a walk... or shop... or do something to relax myself... this is just not going smooth for me... maybe i should go to the uni fair in RP after all... =( i'm on the verge of giving up... yet i'm forced to put up a strong front... i think i'm crumbling soon... sigh....