arrggh!!!! i really don't see why you have to be so spiteful about things... i suppose i was wrong in trying to be comforting towards your fears and trying to make you see the postive side... thanks for all those putting downs ya? why can't you just see the positive side of things instead of keep making me feel lousy about schools that offer me a place? so much of thinking that you'll be a good friend and give me your best regards instead of keep saying things like i'm going to a lousy school or that they are just after my money... i mean what do you get out of doing this? me not being able to go with you to UQ is not my fault ya? i thought you would share the same joy as me when i get a placing from a school that is of some recognition and i decided to share with you my joy... but what did i get back from you?? all those negative things about my placing... my grades may not be as good as yours but so what... you knew you were able to get into a school... but i didn't ya? and you have no idea how high i was when i received the offer letter... and telling you about it only brought back negative thinking from you just because i won't be able to join you... i mean what's the deal with that? shouldn't you be happy for a friend who got into a uni instead of sulking that you'll be going all alone? i do know how you feel about being alone in a strange place and all cos i'll prolly feel that way one day.. but shouldn't it be time that you've learn to be independent and see this in a positive light? i'm tired of swallowing all your awful comments about my uni offers... i'm trying hard to keep them all in about your insensitivity towards my offer... telling you that states visits can be done is meant to comfort you instead of letting you put me down once again... please think about other people's feeling when you do such stuff ya? you may be fearing about going off alone... in fact... you won't be going totally alone... just now going with someone's that's really familiar with... but so what... life's like that... you've got to go some place where no one knows you at all one day... and this is just another part of your life... so why can't you just stop putting me down and finding all ways to make me feel like crap and look at the good side for once and be happy for a friend who did the same for you? i am upset... cos i'm disappointed with you... disappointed of the way you've become ever since you were set on going to UQ... disappointed by the way you just think of every way to make me feel lousy about myself with the schools that accepts me... go do some soul searching girl... cos i'm sick of being nice already... cos now i know that my comforts to you are just something you see as spite for me...

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what are friend's for? they are for making you feel better about yourself... that's how i see you seeing friendship... cos that's what you did and is still doing to me...

after such a loooong and anxious wait... my reply finally came... I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED IN ANU!!!!!! HURRAYSS!!!!! all those prayers of being able to go in and all... the long tiring wait is over... muahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha..... i'm so over the moon right now... =) this month is starting out good for me... =)

on the 18th... it was the Baboon's birthday... but we didn't meet up... cos as usual... that fellow has programs or something...

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