been looking for jobs since i came back... and i still haven't found one... damn.... i feel so bugged staying at home... applied many jobs in hospitals one monday and tuesday... but of course... they haven't got back to me... though i hope they would get back asap... =x i'm so worried... and i don't dare talk to anyone about my problems... rather to be direct i just don't want people to know... and i can't bring myself to complain.... sigh~ coming back makes me happy... but i'm idling... =( i don't wanna idle... it's making me bored stiff and feeling useless... =(

i don't like staying home... anna's making me feel even more pressured that i haven't found a job... =( i'm feel stressed even though i'm not studying... =x how am i going to get through this.... =((

Hospitals~ please please please call me... =( i really wanna work at your hospital... =( i wanna get a job~!!!! =(

=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( i need comfort hugs in my comfort zone... =(( hug please... =(

anyways... bye... off to rotting again.. i should call schools tomorrow... no more procrastinating and moving it to tomorrow... i'm going crazy if i don't get out of the house soon...

by the way... the weather's making me feel worse... argh~!!!