tragedy on 1st of Febuary.... my ancient one Coco left the world and onto heaven... the last day of school was the worst last day of school ever... all i wanted to do was to go home... in fact i didn't even wanna be in school at all... all i could think about was him... i wanted to be there at his last hour... close to him... and seeing him till his heart stops beating... my heart ached so much when i left the house knowing that he was very weak... but i had to go to school... it's was the most dreaded school day ever... i kept crying... i wanna be strong... but i couldn't be... the tears just keeps welling up....

9.30 something a.m... the dreaded call of death came... Coco took his last breathe from this world and passed on... Anna was crying... i was crying... Ah Ling Jiejie was crying... the world was shattering in me... i wanted to rush home then and there... but i knew it was not possible... my bad for ponning 3 times for the Clinical trial... damn it... why was i so weak-willed?

devastation was what i felt... i didn't wanna do anything... say anything to anyone... i can't bring myself to smile at all... those curves that i put on my face... they were all so forceful... i felt like crumbling... but i know i can't... the day moved on.. but i couldn't wait to go home... home and the burial was all i could focus on the whole day... no one knew what was wrong with me i supposed... and i didn't wanna tell anyone except some close ones... every minute in school was torturous for me... yet some part of me didn't wanna head home to the cold hard fact that the precious one is gone... gone forever and never coming back... the bus ride home was taken heavy hearted... i started crying till i slept on the bus... i couldn't utter a word the whole day without feeling disgusted that i'm not home with him...

6 plus close to 7 p.m.... it was drizzling as Daddy dug the grave for him at his territory the backyard... even the sky's crying for him... the air was heavy around us in the backyard... all solemn for his death... i guess everyone was feeling heavy but the parents did not show it... they were trying to be strong i guess... after much digging... the rain started to get heavier and Coco was brought in to get lowered into his grave... he looked like he's taking his usual long nap just like any other day... it was really hard to believe that he's really really no longer here in this world with us... no more smell of him... or his familiar figure basking under the sun like he always do... no more endless barking... no more feeding time excitement... i didn't know what to do... his body soon got covered up and he's now deep down in the earth of our backyard... i didn't cry... nor did i wanna talk... i was a mute for a day... i couldn't bring myself to speak... Anna still gave Coco his usual dinner at the usual time... his spirit is still with us she said... he'll be coming back to have his dinner... the food will then be ready for him to eat... my heart sank when i heard those words... it's really very hard to let go someone that was with us for 14 plus years... he was more than just a pet... more than just a dog... he was family... a brother to the kids and son to the parents... a loved one... and it hurts so much to know he's never gonna be around again... but we've got to be strong... we've got to move on... cos we know that though he left his shell.. he's still among us... he's left a mark in us... and he's our Coco...

Ja Ne Coco

Something else bigger has been planned for you... we will miss you... i will miss you...

but you'll always be in our hearts and it'll always stay that way for eternity...

I Love You

Goodbye my lover boy Coco Lee