life's a rush... and i'm not getting enough sleep... i getting mixed up with dates... i'm panicking over lots of things... and i'm not thinking properly anymore... it's only a week after the 1 week break... but it felt like the break was long gone for many donkey months... aye... this is horrible...
when there's silent wars going on within a clique... what do one do actually? well... i'm doing nothing to it and continue being with the closer clique of the clique... seriously... things are getting very out of hand... and the some of the conflicts don't make sense... =x so what exactly are they not satisfied with each other about? something so hard to just compromise? something that can't be forgiven and forgotten? fighter's club is facebook is getting so out of hand now... it was fun actually... till such things got personal... zzzzz seriously... grow up people... it's just a game... why get personal... seriously...

today's i left school surprisingly early... hahaha... and it was really kinda weird to leave school so early... in fact... leaving school early made me feel at a lost of what to do... hahaha... the habit of leaving school when classrooms starts to close is more of the norm... there's something wrong with today.. hahaha...

UT tomorrow... and i've made a deal with myself to sleep early... and not so late like yesterday... 3plus then sleep... it was total madness... i only had 3 hours of sleep and maybe even less... many sleeps to help me get through the day was used... like sleeping on the bus to school... and sleeping in class during first breakout to keep me awake in 3rd meeting... then sleeping in the train home... which i overslept and woke up just in time to see myself miss my stop... oops... hahaha... my tiredness totally shows... =x i've got to stop sleeping at odd hours... it's bad... =P

weight's been gained... =x it's scary... i'm gonna start running very soon... it's about time i shed those fats again and snacking is forbidden now... besides... i'm flat broke... i'm miserable... *faints* i should get a job... with money rolling in for me... so that i won't be so miserable all the time... or rather... i should be saving... and not going out so much to spend money... haha... my bank statement's shocking... seriously... why can't i be Izzie... with someone to give me close to 9million dollars... i'll definitely spend those money wisely... or i might not even spend it after all... baaahh.... keep dreaming cynthia.. like that would ever come true... Project Budget shall commence from tonight... no more spending on unnecessary things.. i'll stick to a tight expenses plan... i must and i will... don't doubt me... =)

christmas is in the air... =D decorations are up everywhere... this year's theme's Magical Christmas... with those nutcracker soldiers and ballerinas... ahhhhhhhh.... i love such themes... that's how christmas should be... the old school Nutcracker theme... i simply loving it... i won't be in singapore on christmas eve though.. i'll only in town on christmas day... and even so... it would the late late late christmas day... =x but it's a change.. family trip like finally... i don't know why i'm so excited about it... but i just seem to be... prolly cos the last time we did a family trip... it's was like 7 years ago? as we grow older... i guess we start to not have time for our family cos we're too caught up in our social life... no matter how one tries to keep a balance between both... it still gets neglected... i miss seeing my parents and having dinner with them sometimes... but nowadays... they themselves have plans of their own and our timing always never seem to meet each other properly... when i'm home for dinner... they have appointments... and when they're home for dinner... i'm not... we're becoming parrallel lines... we don't cross each other anymore... =x oh wells... at least i've still got sundays with them... but if i were to start entering working life... would even weekends be something impossible to spend time with them? i do hope i won't...

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