i have no idea why... but suddenly... i just feel all down and miserable and bored of life... plain sad... just like =(((((( long long face and not wanting to interact with anybody or say a word... like i wanna be left alone yet i don't really want to... seriously... i don't know what i want now... or how i feel... or what not... it's prolly the hormones acting up again... aye... sick of it...

I'M SICK OF LIFE!!!!

failed PP... =((( yeah... i'm the one of the rare people who fails PP... the unlucky streak again? most prolly... baaaaaahhh.... i hate it... i hate having this kinda feeling... been so silent the whole day... been forcing myself to appear happy... but I'M NOT.... I'M NOT HAPPY!!!! =((( i'm miserable... i'm a miserable girl now... so miserable that i wanna scream... but.... i can't... joyce... where are you... i wanna rant to you... =( i've got nobody to rant to now... and inside me... i'm like bursting... bursting with unhappiness... and yet i've got to hold back... i don't dare utter a word... sigh... i wanna cry... crying do make things better do they? wrong.... crying doesn't help... it just makes you feel even more miserable... so what do i do with the misery inside me? nothing... yeah... i do nothing...

the long awaited package of clothes finally came... and yet i'm not one bit excited at all... =x this is really wrong... =( see the misery... and i bet anyone reading this now would also be sick of reading how miserable i am and how i'm drowning myself in misery... yes... i'm totally giving up on myself... just like in grey's... where Meredith just totally give up keeping herself afloat in the water and just die... yeah... that's how i'm feeling... and if i were in that kinda situation right now... i'll prolly just do the same thing too... =x but of course... i'm different from her... cos she has McDreamy to come save her.. haha... i'll prolly just drown and join the drowning crowd... =x like whatever...

UT madness is once again here... gotta go study already... though like it would make any difference... but oh wells... at least i did study... and hard work does pay off doesn't it? yeah right... in my dreams...

bye...