been watching an anime called Jigoku Shouju or the english name Hell Girl... and it's an interesting anime... one with not so much laughter... yet you understand why the people pull the string on the straw doll and seek revenge with the help of the Hell Girl... then again... does it really happen in reality? revenge after revenge... a never ending one? if there were to have such a website where Hell Girl becomes true... would i be on one of the hate list? would i disappear to hell too?

i watched the show and i started thinking.. if i entered the website... who's name would i put down? then i realized... i never hated anyone before... in fact there's no one i hate... sure i do say i wish this certain person would disappear from the surface of the earth and what have you... but ultimately... i just brush it off and not bother after awhile... and just live with it... even if it's unbearable... i believe one day that hate would just go away... and of course it did...

there's a thing i don 't get... how can people bring themselves to hate someone? hating someone takes up alot of energy... that's how i see it... why go through the trouble of doing terrible things for someone you hate in the first place?

hate... it's such a strong and harsh word to use... unless the person did something unforgivable and so terrible that there's no savaging then maybe it's right to hate that person... but to send him/her to hell and you joining them? is it worth the trouble? is it all worthwhile in the end? living with the knowledge that you'll end up in hell? why do people hold grudges in the first place? do the person holding the grudge even feels good doing that? if i had hold grudges... then prolly my ancient one would be cursed to hell for killing my parrot due to animal instincts and my dad too for fogging the garden not knowing my hamsters were outside... sure... i got angry and refused to speak to either of them for a long while... but i still in the end... i wished them all go to heaven if there's such a place when they leave the earth... especially the ancient one... he may be a wild pet... but he's still loved and a good one... he'll go to dog heaven... =)

so people... here's the question... would you actually wanna go hell with someone you claim to hate? wouldn't it not be worth it?

i believe in karma... such people who do evil stuff to people.. they'll get back double of what they did to others...

here's what i think... don't hate... some people may see this action as hypocritical or what... but seriously... don't hate... no matter what that person did... never hate... cause if one revenge is taken another would follow and it'll be a never ending battle of revenge... what's the point in all that right? ultimately no one's happy... and that's the ugly side of reality...

i love the world i've created and live in... cos it acts as comfort to me when i come back from this harsh world that we humans have created... how sad is that...

bon nuit! chao... =D