i'm done waiting...
i've given up hoping for any initiation...
i'm not gonna take any said words seriously ever again...
i'm done giving in...
i've enough of sorries that don't solve anything...
i'm done... just done...

what's the point of talking things out when nothing changes... what's the point of the sorries when nothing seems to be solved... maybe i'm just too unreasonable and ridiculous... maybe i'm really making trouble out of nothing... but it's time to start reflecting... sure... you're initiative... in always joining the crowd... neglecting me... giving me empty words... and it's not just once you did that... it's over and over and over again... my temper's weird? that's cos i don't know what to do when i'm always gettng disappointed time and time again... and so i start having weird tempers... maybe it's an excuse to you... but think about it... just go think about it...

what's love... all those claims of love... is it really there? maybe just a small little amount... a tiny one... that's why all these actions are made... my bad... i kept my hopes too high... 1month's short... but shouldn't it be the honeymoon period? shouldn't there not be any negligence but more attention instead? shouldn't there not be empty words said yet?

this is pathetic... i'm ranting my relationship problems for everyone to see... but i can't contain it in myself any longer... i just so tired of all these empty talks and words and sorries and yet i have no way of putting it across cos i know that unhappiness will start stirring and before i know it... what i really treasure would be gone... in a blink... kaput... gone... poof... but keeping mum isn't going to help is it? it's gonna bug me... then things will just get worse... either way.... nothing comes out right...

i'm worrying about too many things... projects... school... grades... now relationship... will worries ever go away? i need a break... a break from worries... why can't things worry-free... especially relationships... why can't it be sweet like before we got together... where you will wanna spend time with me instead of the negligence i'm receiving now...

i give up... i'll let things be... what's the point of trying so hard to work things out and having disappointments always and all i get is being back at square one... i give up... i'll give my love... and pray that thing will be right again... someday...

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