long weekend for me... RP open house... how good is that... i'd say totally... loving those days when i don't have to go school... i just found out that this sem... i didn't skip much of school... seriously... normally i would have used up my leaves by now... but miraculously... i made it... so now... i have leaves to take if i want to... how cool is that... it also shows one thing... school's much better in the 2nd sem i guess... and i gotta admit... it was kinda good this sem... the class's not so foreign compared to the previous ones... and i'm thankful for that... 4 more weeks... and back to strangers when school reopens... but then again... who cares... the holidays come first... then it'll means my final year has come... and it also means i'm screwed for FYP and PP... yucks!! i'll grad fast... i have a feeling that this year's gonna be a short and fast year... on second thought... i always feel that way... =) no more RP soon... yay!!

i've cooped myself at home for 2 days already... and i'm gonna do it again the following 3 days to come... skipping monday since i have to go school for the open house thingy which i signed up with Jasmine... and i feel perfectly fine doing that... people actually feel bored cooping themselves at home and not doing anything productive... and yet... i feel absolutely fine and in fact satisfied... i guess i just don't have that sense of being productive eh... oh well... i need to get started on studying for my UT then... weeks of endless test coming my way after the open house long weekend... and before i know it... it's the holidays and Chinese New Year... i should be glad... i've got to focus... just focus... focus till i can't anymore and start falling into depression and seclusion once again... and no one will understand why... *shrugs*

i'm not gonna spend anymore unnecessary money anymore... i've flat broke and it's high time that i should save... my parents are right... i shouldn't be spending every cent i have whenever i do have them like i'll not live tomorrow... it's just not right... i need to get that into my head... i'm gonna be budget... real budget... maybe i should go back to having packed lunch everyday... or better stilll 1 meal per day... which means no food till i get home from school... i'll probably die of gastric pain one of these days.. but it doesn't matter... every dollar save is worth it... or is it not? whichever... i'm gonna save and dollar i get... and it'll come to a point where i'l become so used to it that i've become a miser without knowing... but it's for the best i suppose... now does any of these make sense to you?

i've come to a conclusion about liking a person... and that's never to tell a person that you like him/her/it/whatever... it just becomes weird... the best way to resolve such silly matters... is to deny them... friends are always better than lovers... they'll not make you cry... they'll not hurt you that much... and they're not that trouble-worry if there's such a thing... the bottomline is... they don't last any longer than dinosaurs on earth... it's so random to actually say something on such topics... prolly the early morning thoughts that happens to cross my mind... it's 4am... it's the timing... i'm not thinking normal as i should... but seriously... when you like someone... never express it... especially for girls... cos it gets scary to the guys... unless of course... you're really sure how the other guy/girl/it/whatever feels about you... why have unnecessary disappointment... and heartbreaks... and mixed feelings... and lose a friend in that process eh? always go for reaasurance... it's the safest...

i'm going off to bed now then... who knows when will i suddenly write something again.... this entry was entered only cos my hair isn't dry.. though i did meant to write many times in many days... but just couldn't bring myself to... and i have no idea why... it beats me... so since my hair's half dried already... maybe it's time for me to stop ranting and saying things that doesn't seem to make sense at all... or just simply being so random...

chao... bon nuit! and bonjour!


P.S: Andy Lau's my love by the way... where can i ever find someone like him besides himself and Richard Gere and Daniel Wu... i'm being shallow now... shoot me...